Sabtu, 23 Februari 2013

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22 - 02- 2013
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Things I'll Never Say


I know it's an old song. Ijust feel I wanna post thi lyric nowadays. Just thinking about this song everyday and can't get off of my mind. *sorry for the broken english!*


I'm tugging at my hair

I'm pulling at my clothes
I'm trying to keep my cool
I know it shows
I'm staring at my feet
My cheeks are turning red
I'm searching for the words inside my head



(Cause) I'm feeling nervous
Trying to be so perfect
Cause I know you're worth it
You're worth it
Yeah



If I could say what I want to say
I'd say I wanna blow you... away
Be with you every night
Am I squeezing you too tight
If I could say what I want to see
I want to see you go down
On one knee
Marry me today
Guess, I'm wishing my life away
With these things I'll never say



It don't do me any good
It's just a waste of time
What use is it to you
What's on my mind
If it ain't coming out
We're not going anywhere
So why can't I just tell you that I care



(Cause) I'm feeling nervous
Trying to be so perfect
Cause I know you're worth it
You're worth it
Yeah



If I could say what I want to say
I'd say I wanna blow you... away
Be with you every night
Am I squeezing you too tight
If I could say what I want to see
I want to see you go down
On one knee
Marry me today
Guess, I'm wishing my life away
With these things I'll never say



What's wrong with my tongue
These words keep slipping away
I stutter, I stumble
Like I've got nothing to say



(Cause) I'm feeling nervous
Trying to be so perfect
Cause I know you're worth it
You're worth it
Yeah



Guess I'm wishing my life away with these things I'll never say
If I could say what I want to say
I'd say I wanna blow you...away
Be with you every night
Am I squeezing you too tight
If I could say what I want to see
I want to see you go down
On one knee
Marry me today
Guess, I'm wishing my life away
With these things I'll never say
These things I'll never say


Rabu, 20 Februari 2013

Dear, February.

Halo semua! I will speak in Indonesian and English in this post, ok? :) 

Hey people! You have to know if I miss blogging SO MUCH. I hate my senior high school schedull, it's full. And when I'm at home, I have to do all of my (too much) homeworks. I miss junior high school schedule when I have a time to blogging after school. I hate being do-not-have-time-for-blogging person. I'm bloggers, and I love to share what I love to people!

Aku sebel banget enggak bisa bagi waktu untuk blogging. Kalo ada waktu istirahat, waktunya bener-bener habis buat istirahat aja, hiburan juga cuma nonto tv. Sempet sih ngenet, itu aja kalo buat tugas. Aku punya banyak ide, cerita, informasi buat ditulis di sini. Akku mau banget curhat-curhat di sini. Bisa bikin hati lega sama beban hidup. Karena selama di SMA aku belum pernah curhat sama siapapun.

Temen-temen SMA-ku baik-baik. Mungkin lebih baik dari temen SMP. Tapi temen SMA belum ada yang bisa dijadiin sahabat. Belum. Kadang-kadang suka bayangin bisa ketemu temen SMP lagi, cerita-cerita, tentang apapun. Kangen juga di masa-masa SMP saat kita ngomongin komik, novel fiksi, lagu-lagu british, lagu barat, lagu jepang, atau kadang-kadang korea (but I'm not KPOPers, but I do respect them). :)

Bukannya temen-temen SMA-ku enggak suka sama hal-hal kayak gitu. Tapi temen-temen SMA-ku udah dewasa, mereka udah tau apa yang harus dihadapi sekarang. Mereka udah berpikir untuk masa depan. Sedangkan aku, aku enggak bisa berpikir dewasa. Aku belum seperti mereka. Memikirkan kehidupan. Mungkin tubuhku dewasa, tapi cara berpikirku enggak. Selalu aja aku mau main. Terus-terusan main. Aku enggak terlalu berpikir gimana masa depanku. Apasih yang salah sama aku?

Kenapa aku belum sadar juga? Kenapa?